fleegar

@shoutplenty

one moment i remember, i was standing around here back when only like 3 of those cousins i mentioned existed. i would’ve been like 9

then it was about 7 years later that one of them offered me a handjob lol. i was so confused. this bothered me for another 10 years cos [1/7] https://twitter.com/shoutplenty/status/1842024953593659418

10/9/2024, 9:11:54 PM

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fleegar

@shoutplenty

i had this thing i kept thinking about but it felt like i wasn’t allowed to say it, which fucks with me cos it’s living a lie with that person. so i finally /said/ it and got a predictably unhelpful reaction of like “god forbid” and, ofc, dodging acknowledgement or even denial

10/9/2024, 9:11:55 PM

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fleegar

@shoutplenty

i think most people would read that and ask well why did it bother you for 10 years

and yeah this is one of them that points to a life lost long ago

if i understand correctly, the expected reaction for both of us is like “oh that was funny, i forgot that happened”

10/9/2024, 9:11:56 PM

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fleegar

@shoutplenty

in cases like this, i cope by thinking things would’ve been less distorted if i’d seen these people more than once per 3 years but

my reflection on school makes me realise nothing would ever have been enuff. i spent that decade of daily interactions just standing there

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