fleegar

@shoutplenty

i used to have a friend who'd trip out mid-convo and start monologuing about himself, say open up his youtube and start showing me private videos that were snippets of his life

the red pill pov always niggled, warned me that he didn't care to reverse roles, to see my stuff [1/4]

7/15/2024, 4:54:37 PM

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fleegar

@shoutplenty

but the blue pill, in hindsight, tells me i actually enjoyed him doing this more than i cared about it being one-sided. i realise friendship for me is about taking a stake in someone's life, and a lot of the pain is about being unable to get this reciprocated over the years

7/15/2024, 4:54:38 PM

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fleegar

@shoutplenty

for this reason, i was rarely confident enough to ask my friends to take a trip into my world

so with that in mind, i've been building my website and youtube channel basically as if i'm the person showing ppl my private stuff, except it's public so ppl can passively do it

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