yet the discussion didn’t link the framework to show it off, didn’t link the essay that goes thru all the issues they’re discussing<br><br>they engage in the restricted space controlled by the gaslighty creep warspyking, they privilege his participation over mine despite him abusing me

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@shoutplenty

people continually breaking promises to support you or lying about their intentions is one (v painful) thing but

i’m impressed how they find novel ways to stick the knife in sometimes

there’s a lot of infrastructure around sms that was made so i could participate in it [1/10]

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@shoutplenty

well, that’s one way of saying “i made it cos ppl who claimed to be my friends didn’t care that i couldn’t participate”

few ppl contribute to it cos they realise that, cos it’s accuracy-oriented, they can get the best of both worlds by ignoring it

but some go further than that

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@shoutplenty

they submit a single token speedrun, or in one case, a single token *comment* on a speedrun, then go back to ignoring it. it’s so dirty to look at those

ppl readily acknowledge that they use the accurate leaderboards

yet when the time comes to discuss lb accuracy,

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@shoutplenty

they break their promise to include me in the discussion, instead arguing in favour of erasure – a concept came from me, so let’s not discuss it cos i’m not there

i made a framework that solved the problems they’re discussing and dominated the market for it

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@shoutplenty

yet the discussion didn’t link the framework to show it off, didn’t link the essay that goes thru all the issues they’re discussing

they engage in the restricted space controlled by the gaslighty creep warspyking, they privilege his participation over mine despite him abusing me

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@shoutplenty

and they fully admit he is that, then buy themselves time to further “discuss”, invent centrist positions and leave them hanging after getting debunked after i share them around

i’m amazed how fast gratitude for my work evaporates as soon as i move on and stop campaigning

1/19/2024, 9:12:31 PM

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@shoutplenty

it folds into an organic pressure to ignore me, and to blame me if i complain and make myself hard to ignore

it’s such a strong effect that even when my work is directly relevant, it’s revised to not be part of the conversation

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@shoutplenty

i once had a fake best friend who was like this in spaces i was abusively ostracised from

sdll gets a lot of condemnation for this but the parallel to how the sms players treat me is totally lost on them

i think if they picked apart the broader sdll victim-blaming dynamic then

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@shoutplenty

they would see in the quotes reflections of their own quotes and actions, and would come to a fork – do they reject their own actions, or do they join in?

for me, this is proof of my systematic worthlessness and how it generalises from social group to social group

1/19/2024, 9:12:33 PM

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@shoutplenty

it’ll be key to understand that, when i break down these dynamics from sdll, the reason i didn’t simply move on is that i’ve realised they are systematic and generalise beyond sdll to everything

i see friendships as a thin line that could collapse into all this at any time

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