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@shoutplenty

there’s one part of the story with the sms players that i can’t wrap my head around cos it seems like it proves they’re mostly psychotic or maybe suggests western culture is raising ppl to be emotionally-detached psychos or smth

it’s the story of lumardy’s anonymisation [1/14] https://twitter.com/shoutplenty/status/1740685071332643194

1/10/2024, 2:09:17 AM

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fleegar

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at first, i was hopeful that this would end in mutual healing, in much the way sinead described in my last tweet. i set a firm boundary for him to leave but intended to honour his legacy, maybe make peace one day. so his name stayed up

1/10/2024, 2:09:18 AM

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fleegar

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but unsurprisingly, it instead took the direction of torment and group gaslighting. after luke tried a social coup, faked a disappearance, harassed me competitively and lied to cover it up, i spoke to mods lego and yhatoh about anonymising him, and they agreed with the idea

1/10/2024, 2:09:18 AM

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fleegar

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i was peeved that lego wanted me to ask rather than directly reacting to the ongoing abuse, so i left it to him to do it (he didn’t)

in july after the secret left bell wr, i finally directly ask. lego and yhatoh are gone, so i get ignored by ian_lc and eventually, deep breath,

1/10/2024, 2:09:19 AM

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fleegar

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warspyking concocts a plan to have the anonymisation *publicly voted on*, conveniently leaving luke’s name up for 5 months and counting in the meantime

that second detail + him calling me entitled for demanding the anon makes me realise it’s a play for psychological control

1/10/2024, 2:09:20 AM

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fleegar

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i write about how alone and isolated this double standard makes me feel, following the outrage there was around guy2308 for behaving the exact same way (abuse->cancelled->torment). i actually explicitly cite my distress at nobody coming to my aid in dealing with warspyking here

1/10/2024, 2:09:21 AM

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fleegar

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*everyone*, right – all the mods, all my friends, and mlarvitar supporters – say nothing, do nothing, and signal clearly they don’t give a shit

5 months pass. there is one comment about how insane it is that luke is getting away with tormenting me w/o consequence. nobody replies

1/10/2024, 2:09:22 AM

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fleegar

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now this is where the story gets properly fucked. about a week ago, inkstar anonymises lumardy from the original il leaderboard. his motive seems to have nothing to do with either of us, and the stated reason is the inconsistency with guy2308 etc.. skitch also gets taken out

1/10/2024, 2:09:22 AM

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he runs it past the il mods. it turns out they literally agreed the whole time!!! warspy doesn’t even try to stop it

maybe frededish is the most striking example. an il mod, he had been calling himself my friend, read my distress first-hand 5mths ago, agreed with the action

1/10/2024, 2:09:23 AM

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yet said *absolutely* nothing. luke instead gets anonymised for reasons unrelated to me by some1 who doesn’t care about me

another mod tries to sell me this as “progress”. i tell him this story, point out it’s only the il board, not speedrun .com. he says “it’s being worked on”

1/10/2024, 2:09:24 AM

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fleegar

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you can see the punchline coming

this 10-minute job still hasn’t been done a week later. despite most agreeing it should be done, except warspyking, who seems to not even be actively bothering to get his way, cos it’s just happening anyway

1/10/2024, 2:09:24 AM

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fleegar

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perhaps a clearer example is that there is a majority of mods who would unban me from the discord/leaderboards, yet it still hasn’t happened

as a collective, the sms players seem to be acting out a sort of deadened apathy, numbness to my emotions and words, while still agreeing

1/10/2024, 2:09:25 AM

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fleegar

@shoutplenty

some r responsible for my request, some r pretending to be my friend

this is changing my understanding of humanity + the cultural context i live in. it’s been a long journey to come to terms w/ selfishness + individualism but this story crosses a big line down the pit of decline

1/10/2024, 2:09:26 AM

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fleegar

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but don’t forget – there’s something about *me*

this kind of thing doesn’t happen to 1upsforlife. a lack of receipts and repeated attempts to keep secrets aren’t stopping others from immediately defending her in extremely aggressive and abusive ways [14/14]

1/10/2024, 2:09:28 AM

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