i've realised that there's a sweet-spot of pressure that gets you to actually take action. you need to have a clear enough head to understand your true feelings, but not be so free of pressure that u just put things off and drift aimlessly for another year, running from reality

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@shoutplenty

this week-ish marks 2 years of sdll ending as well as 1 year of sms ban, and i remember thinking 1y ago i surely wouldn't survive the latter because it'd been a conclusion i'd drawn from the former that it wasn't worth living with it and it'd just get worse if i did

9/14/2023, 5:00:42 AM

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@shoutplenty

so it was a huge reinforcement of that conclusion to have it happen before my eyes a year later. yet i did survive it... at least for a bit, and i think that's partly bc it was so overwhelming that i couldn't come to terms with it. facing up to social unviability is hard

9/14/2023, 5:00:43 AM

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@shoutplenty

i've realised that there's a sweet-spot of pressure that gets you to actually take action. you need to have a clear enough head to understand your true feelings, but not be so free of pressure that u just put things off and drift aimlessly for another year, running from reality

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@shoutplenty

i've actually become quite adept at controlling the amount of pressure i put myself under by selectively reading stuff haha. and this month is uniquely very favourable when it comes to this balance of pressure so i'm tryna take advantage of it

9/14/2023, 5:00:44 AM

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