the 2ndary theme of the suburbs is how it gets harder to be ok as the filter of childhood dissipates and leaves u facing the dehumanised city<br><br>still there’re hints things aren’t so bad cos u grew up w each other. but when i look into those memories, i find they’re mostly missing

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the suburbs is, best i can put it, about the struggle to feel ok in a mega-city. i live penned in by a green belt and feel awful enough as it is, but errythng is always 10x worse in america. still i know 1/1000 ppl in the world live where i am

yet i have the loneliest life [1/7]

2/14/2023, 3:21:00 AM

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the 2ndary theme of the suburbs is how it gets harder to be ok as the filter of childhood dissipates and leaves u facing the dehumanised city

still there’re hints things aren’t so bad cos u grew up w each other. but when i look into those memories, i find they’re mostly missing

2/14/2023, 3:21:01 AM

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i’m gonna reexplain half light cos i was too cryptic 1st time. the first song is about presence and liminality, and how being in the half light just for a bit, wondering about what goes on in all the houses, gives you a child’s energy to not conform + mentally escape the suburbs

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the second is about the hangover this leads to. of having to grow up and move on from bad things, and how your childhood ghosts haunting the places you walk around aren’t real. coming to terms with what you’ve lost, not living in a liminal dissociation forever

2/14/2023, 3:21:02 AM

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i relate to this a lot cos it’s my comfort and affinity for liminality that’s made me the unusual and built-different person i am but it’s also given me an unbreakable alienation as i realise i’ve lived alone in the half light my whole adult life and can’t get back in the houses

2/14/2023, 3:21:03 AM

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i keep getting kicked out. i like ppl in the way i like things now (https://twitter.com/shoutplenty/status/1621244511673278464), i need ever-larger amounts of intimacy to feel ok that just aren’t there (https://twitter.com/shoutplenty/status/1621871660969218048)

and i’m still out here in the streets, still not listening (https://youtu.be/qrwCeUqB8CU)

2/14/2023, 3:21:03 AM

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well, “not listening” is harsh. i always want ppl to tell me what i should do differently. it wouldve fixed a lot. but they blame me so much when i fail to change things

anyway i hope that was clearer. i hate that ppl don’t get my tweets but then don’t ask me to reexplain [7/7]

2/14/2023, 3:21:04 AM

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