fleegar

@shoutplenty

i remember how confident i used to be about human conflict. shit was kinda easy for me cos i have sound principles (those i talk about here like "keep talking") and never initiated personal conflict (if not political, cos i was ok w getting rid of corrupt mods for example) [1/7]

2/7/2023, 7:22:30 AM

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fleegar

@shoutplenty

i used to talk to dozens of ppl promoting conciliation between them + someone they'd fallen out with. i was proactive, always had time to get involved in others' conflicts, promoting compromise

i was myself so easy to get on with. open to all friendships, never hateful

2/7/2023, 7:22:30 AM

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fleegar

@shoutplenty

when i was picked on, the boot was on the other foot. most instead took sides, cut me out, and there was a staggering amount of lying i wasn't prepared for. i flipped one case, but it left me so broken that when a more intelligent manipulator came along, i lost my shit completely

2/7/2023, 7:22:31 AM

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@shoutplenty

idk if there even was a right way to handle the times i was victimised, but either way i got it wrong every time and made things worse. my darkest actions were borne thence. never a question of learning, just a 1-strike-and-you're-out basis

2/7/2023, 7:22:31 AM

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@shoutplenty

it turns out that something you once knew + could be confident you were a force for good with can turn into an indispensible part of life that u cannot handle at all anymore. conciliation, figuring out what is and isn't abuse, being accused of things that didn't happen

2/7/2023, 7:22:32 AM

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