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a series of v bad mental health days due to that political faked abuse case i was fingered with. political meaning done w/o the victim’s consent with an ulterior motive
people saw this happen, they saw what the case was as well, and still they let it happen? really??
11/4/2022, 5:12:28 AM
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this kinda trauma brings invasive thoughts, the “that really happened” mental recalibration u undergo. i don’t talk to any1 from there anymore but i process trauma by talking so i’ll probs write more but keep it off twitter cos it’s dirttyyy. a lot of unbelievable shit happened
11/4/2022, 5:12:29 AM
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i get angry about ppl getting away w that but it ain’t a patch on how angry i got about my intimate friendship stuff. the lies, spurnings, betrayals etc etc etc. i’ve found that when u hit the bottom, say u lose all your close friends, then u actually can’t sink much further
11/4/2022, 5:12:29 AM
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but it also means if u make it so far w/o killing urself, then it’ll never happen unless u actually make it happen. i have the mentality of like a voluntary death row inmate haha
no retry, no abort; sit on the menu until the next trauma, then
11/4/2022, 5:12:30 AM
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i used sms to guide me thru the past year of pain cos i liked it and it gave me purpose. picked it up tonite and felt the same relief, a few hrs of distraction, an old goal to work towards
11/4/2022, 5:12:31 AM
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it’s a shame nothin else does it anymore. think i’m done w coding, cos i got bored and my brain pivoted away from natsci for some reason. but i also dgaf about music anymore cos i’m bitter from lack of opportunity hence uninspired
i’m working on publishing my old shit at least
11/4/2022, 5:12:31 AM
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